wanna be a scholar…

i told you that my tuition fee is really high… and my parents work really hard…

 i also told you that i’m just an average student… i haven’t got any academic awards… even one of the tenth honor students…

i want to help my parents… i tried doing things to have extra income… unfortunately, i don’t have any money to start it…

i tried looking for small jobs… but here in philippines, eighteen years old and above is the only people that can work…

so being a scholar came to my mind…

it’s very unexpected for me to be a scholar… i’m not that intelligent… or even have the guts to study an hour without breaks…

but it’s the only thing that can help my parents…

i was searching for Oxford university one time… and i found a scholarship program…

i was very happy but when i read further…it is offered to US citizens only… and i’m a Filipino…

well… i’m not giving up yet… i searched for scholarship programs here in phillipines… i found nothing….

so i guess… it’s time to give up…

even i have the sources to have a scholarship… i think i can’t pass the examinations if i am worthy to be a scholar…

that’s it… this dream only took my mind for a day…

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stop wasting time…

there’s a magazine that i really like… it’s not cosmo or any fashion mags… it’s a religious magazine…FISH… yes… it’s called Fish… i wonder why… anyways… i just read it’s latest issue this feb… there’s an article there entitled “Find your place under the sun” that really interest me… and that’s the last article i read there… i don’t know how did the title caught me… but i know it’s important for me to read it…. for the first time… an article challenged me… to take time and discover my own God-given mission… i stopped a while and load it in my head… what’s my mission? what are the things i should do in my life? what’s my purpose here on earth? well… it’s not that dramatic that i almost cry… nope… it’s not… it’s supposed to be a reflection that you wasted your time doing crazy things instead of knowing and doing your mission here on earth that was given by God… yeah.. i wasted sixteen years… doing things i shouldn’t do…it’s for nothing… but i realized it’s not really a waste of time… it’s just a preparation to know my real mission… it takes time to know it… and thanks for this article… i realized it’s the right time to work with that mission… want to know my mission? My Mission is to bring ease, happiness and to show God’s love for the abandoned and sick. it’s very simple… simple words but with deep thoughts… that’s my mission and i’m ready to risk my life just to fulfill it… for God… if you’re wondering why i chose the abandoned and sick… well, i have this sympathy over them… most especially to the old people who were left by their families… whenever i see some of them on the streets alone… i always feel that i want to bring them home… feed them and love them… but i can’t ’cause i’m just a little girl… one of my goals in life is to build a paradise for them… sixteen years old is not bad in starting this mission… i guess… small things can do… but i’ll make sure that i will be successful in fulfilling this mission of mine… and it’s my mission anyways… nobody can do it except for me… so start knowing your mission and working for it… for God… stop wasting time… NOTE: the Fish magazine is only sold in Philippines… i’m not also one of the makers of this magazine…

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being a true Catholic Christian…

last wednesday, we had our field trip… we went to pampanga and bataan…
we visited two churches in pampanga and the very famous Dambana ng kagitingan in bataan…
the first church was the one of the churches destroyed by a volcanic eruption… many died inside that church…
half of it is still seen…
after some years, they fixed it but they still maintained the atmosphere of ghosts…
the second church wasn’t destroyed but it was very beautiful that its interior is full of paintings…
it is like the Sistine Chapel of Rome… from ceiling to its wall… paintings are all you can see…
they are proud of having wooden floors because they are one of the two churches here in Philippines to have wooden floors…
the only thing i wonder is that why do they praise more St. James than Jesus?
i have nothing against St. James… actually i also admire him…
but believing more to St. James than to Jesus is not a true catholic christian for me…
i pray to saints to guide me everyday… but i worship only Jesus…
the saints we pray are all believers of Jesus that they too offer their lives to Him… because they are true catholic christians…
they told us that it’s their tradition since their grandfathers built the church… to worship St. James…
well, they could just build another religion for St. James… if the center of their lives is St. James…
or if they are really a catholic christian they could just changed their tradition…
well, i’m not here to change their own tradition… i’m here to express my confused mind…
so if you’re a true catholic christian… believe…trust… offer your lives to Him… to Jesus…

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